I laugh at my bullshit mouth sometimes, and sometimes i share with you. In this case, i do both:

“…your report inspires contemplation. more imagery, i should share. not unselfish, to complete requisite tasks; collect relevant imagery, and arrange for sensible viewing, etc., i may dismiss the effort. the poignant affect of retrospection precludes indulgence. (get busy living, or, get busy cleaning: stellar paths, these are forked at the ominous singularity. collision of opposing forces; dodging shrapnel)…”

Of Running Sheep

These aren’t electric

Uneven, steady,
crooked and kind, this.
Freud stoop’d in, blurry-eyed
in time, an infant
sever, ending Never
in beginning
we be damned
echo voices
come behind
the dampening and flutter
quarrels, logo
fell on icey
hell rise on
intangible
what i write
about it thirsty
great big chocolate
nail the vein
inner fluffer
ever present,
rings out reason:
thinnest line.

(Some of these are set to music, as was the aforementioned.)

smear
I feel bad about the fact that I can get some scibble-paper.
A little bit would be okay, and all i need a few lines–
but the fear of losing them / having the :bugged” in some way–
and then, on again to the next thing,
never having finished; not even to think of anything grand coming of Harold.
But that’s not it.
or Is it?

C’omon Sarah, I’ve got other things I need ‘be doing.
Don’t have all this time to jse in, how you say?:____Fe doa.

Goddamn distinguishing

between “default”, and that which is “supposed to be”.
Either, in theory is excpted to work, but of the tree
and then I preview it in my mind–
this whole “Landscape” orientation of images–
like a storyboard– and different characters interact, etc .

I’m going to charge you a “3″, if NoviceNotes doesn’t get it together soon–
you’re getting a “C”.
no, i understand– it’s all reative to the project

[damn having-to-back-track–
again–
lost track…
where was I ?
FUCK!]

It feels good though–
i mean– the only good thing about it,
is that it feels good– like sleeping.
It’s refreshing. and when it’s finally over,
and i’ve gained, and lost so many thoughts on stuff,
non-stuff- virtual nothingness, i —
though longing-for, and therefore, oft’imes
(panzy’s not coming!) “eh… don’t wory abotu him.
we’ll get to him later. “.

Damnit damn opening the eyes. it’s so much easier with them closesed.
opening the eyes is sure to bring on confusion,
and the throbbin, dull, but ominous pain of forcing itself in,
gaining control, as I proportionally, lose my own.
and that is so very disheartening- so frustrating– so maddening.
should I continue?
what point?
is there pleasure in it? is there purpose; a practical function? that sucks.

once in a while,
a really great idea comes to mind– but it’s always lost.
and what you, Head ?
through past script queries– accessibility…
oh– shit, and then, there’s the damn “Upstairs”
(eyes open now) noise [i.e. Upstairs-Noise]
for all automatic complete-letion of that-houghts / variables —
sometimes good– more often bad– and would me l–
temploate– very important– the proper template,
so much can be affect… ban the un-trustworthy, and make it into a baloon,
now it up, and mail it to the Sun.

no .
all too much time-consuming–
too much for time
(i would NEVER believe her. never. “never trust a junkie”, and she’s just the same…)
i’ll have to try it somewhere-else. the Valkyries
(Lord of the Val… shit… another interjection. damnit. trying to match words in my head.)
random (i think), and unrelated to this….

look– she’s dying. she needs some sleep!. she’s not right.
version 8. not right. needing sleep. — oh yeah, taking One dssssss–
interesting: I spoke to my wallet and, ba… too far gone.
save file, or lose it.
bye bye.

What happens when a skilled (Macromedia) Flash animation artist (a Flash-toonist?) applies his talent and creativity to the ‘shred’-guitar student’s 16th note triplet exercises? You get the Guitar Shred Show, starring Mr. Fastfinger! (You better have a faster-than-dial-up connection, otherwise you’ll experience some serious load-time.)

Certainly worth the visit, Mr. Fastfinger does for guitar-students and shred-guitar what Mr Miyagi did for Daniel LaRusso and Karate! “Listen to your heart. What is it saying!?”, as if to speak an ancient proverb, Mr. Fastfinger advises matter-of-fact-ly one of his many inspirational, Steve Vai -style one-liners.

(more…)

“.. i shoulda learned to play them drums…”

i’ve just developed a theory that I must possess some type of eight-year metamorphosis cycle. what the heck am i talking about: metamorphosis? well, allow me to explain.

my first, albeit fleeting, infatuation with programming consumed me in about 1987 when I excelled in Basic programming in an Intro to Comp-Sci class in Jr High-School (and even earlier if we’ll consider the ol’ Commodore 64 [or was it the VIC-20?] and a few little “which-way books”-inspired, basic IF, THEN, GOTO scripts in which i had my big brothers maneuvering about in some silly little text-based world i created! amusing to think how boring it must have been considering there must only have been 2 (or very limited) options for each next step (can’t recall how that language worked exactly… and it couldn’t have had a db attached, right…. not on audio cassette, as i didn’t even own a floppy drive! heehee– ah, … but i digress…), but when i became facinated with learning to play guitar, it consumed me so thoroughly that i must have abandoned all else as i barely have any other memories from that era other than something guitar, band, or music-related. i’ve been a private guitar instructor since circa 1989 (actually– since before that, but who’s counting, right?), and i’ve dabbled in web design since about 1997, so i guess it would make sense that it would take another 8 years for me to put the two together, huh?

Guitar - by J. Sabarese

it’s not really “there” yet– by that i mean it’s not nearly to the point i want it to be ultimately– sure, i have something published now, and i’ve had guitar stuff, such as my student schedule, published for several years– but i never really sat down and tried to do a nice, dedicated guitar page complete w/ specific sections about resource links, tabs, theory, etc., and now that i’m getting the hang of this web design/ development thing finally, i think i’m ready to apply it to guitar– what i’d really like to do (now don’t go and steal my idea, freak!) is to acquire some digital video clips, apply them to a curriculum associated directly or indirectly with my favorite music theory book, Edly’s Music Theory for Practical People, and stick ‘em on-line for y’all peeps to chew on. Ed R, kind gent that he is, gave me permission to do so, upon his approved review of the material, so i’m very glad of that! Mr Ed’ly’s theory books are very easy to understand, so anyone out there struggling w/ music theory should give one of Ed’s books at least a glance before you put it away– i’ll be you decide that you want to spend more time with it, and you’ll probably even learn a thing or two!

if you have an interest in guitar, learning to play an instrument, or music in general– there’s at least a slight possiblity that something on my guitar page will interest you.

please, if you visit my little on-line Guitar instruction work-in-progress, then do me the honor of returning momentarily to provide me suggestions for improvement, as i realize i need ‘em!