Leonard: “I don’t even know how long she’s been gone… It’s like I’ve woken up in bed, and she’s not here because she’s gone to the bathroom, or something, but somehow, I just– I just know– she’s never going to come back to bed. If I could just reach over and touch her side of the bed, I would know that it was cold. But I can’t. I know I can’t have her back, but I don’t want to wake up in the morning, thinking she’s still here.”
…
“I lie here not knowing how long I’ve been alone. So how: how can I heal? How am I supposed to heal, if I can’t feel time?” ^†

^† — Memento, the film. (dialogue, at approx 00:38:00).

release these horrors
between what sinewy whores
flows bloody cold
diamorphine disease
ebbs and tides
deicide: damn dope!

“ Re: Jane’s Addiction…. man, I used to live by that code… you know, shit Perry said, in all those songs, and Live, and… whatever.

I was actually going to ask if you’ve ever seen their early film “Soul Kiss”, circa 1988. The latter film “Gift”, or “the Gift” (Perry Ferrell & Casey Nicoli [sp?]), which is a pseudo-chronicle of the making of Ritual… that’s good too, but kind of painful to watch nowadays. Like you said, they “used to be”.

I dunno– being an artist, I have a hard time giving up on others. So, I still dig it. Nothing’s Shocking, man– it never gets old to me. All that shit– i could listen to it, as new… somehow. Makes me feel young again. Such youth there… kind of like what Bowie, i think, is saying a lot of times… about Youth, the power therein, the yearning after it… I mean, look at Perry these days– he still seems like a kid, in some ways.

That’s what i mean, about living by that code, etc… ”

(something written to a friend, regarding some conversation over Dave Navarro, Jane’s Addiction, etc., which I wanted to remember)

I once had a dog.

say it
over and over
each time you hit
each time you socked
would you continue, swallowing
would you play-date
to use if not to hate
a game of shuttlecock?